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Old 2 Weeks Ago   #1771
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Originally Posted by Shook View Post
SO, a bit of info about the vent art: I was having an anxiety episode that wasn't really going away, so i decided to try something new and make vent art about it. End result: As seen above. It's not nearly as pretty as most other drawings i've made, but anxiety ain't pretty, and i think it's so far the most emotion i've ever poured into one drawing, so it's pretty important for me. It shows pretty well how an anxiety episode feels to me, and was overall fucking intense to draw, it was like accelerating the anxiety to the speed of stupid in order to pour it out properly. Felt good afterwards, though!

That. :V
Long story short though, anxiety, of the "nearly having a panic attack" variety. It's the terror radiating from my guts, crippling my brain and threatening to erupt out of my mouth; the oppressive cloud of fear encroaching and shutting out the outside world. I was close to the tipping point, but didn't quite get there, thank goodness.
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Old 2 Weeks Ago   #1772
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hey man im shutting out the outside world since around 2014,
i feel superstressed, cant calm down, have expections on myself that i cant reach, atleast not like that

i now have anxiety disorder and strong Depression

anxiety is a bitch

here is a painting from me how i feel

anxiety is a bitch

i always saw the good in People, and always tried to see the good even if it was the worst Person

that somehow changed yeah back in around 2014

i loved everybody and spent all love i had to everybody...

tho never love came back

now i feel, like i did 1 mistake in mylife and everybody hates on me, even tho they made 1000000000000000x

but yeah im not that Person anymore, im full of hate now

its hard to be a good guy, it accidently killed my Soul, something happend and also destroyed the will to believe everybody is possible to do good things, and im still trying to figure out what took me that will, i think that will would help me to be good and strong again, but atm i dont see it

i felt like everybody thought and thinks im a bad guy, and actually this thought that they think made me a bad guy, its hard to describe
i dont feel no matter where i am

i dont have the power to Change, i feel so weak and drained
now where i Need help, nobody helps me
nobody loves me

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Old 1 Week Ago   #1773
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Damn, that's some heavy emotions right there. We spoke on Discord, and i appreciate you coming to me to talk about it, and you're still welcome to do so again at any time. The silver lining of my own dealings with anxiety is that maybe, just maybe, i can better help others deal with it in some way, with an understanding ear if nothing else.

oh also yes i finished inktober i've just been very busy and stressed the past couple of weeks so here you go


also more doodlings

Also been taking a bit of a break from daily drawing, it kinda gets exhausting. :v
You might well end up seeing more of the new sketching strat in the future though, i like it myself!

edit: oh also forgot to mention

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try it out here if you desire zapping
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