Since when did support become a place for you to cry out your feels.
Being slep derived cannot push you over the edge this much, like really. The most you would do is like cuss a bit everytime you lost. Then you mention boredom. I believe that that was the sole reason. You were bored so you wanted to be an attention whore, just like you are doing right now. This is entirely your fault.
also support =/= moral support.