You sure are taking this whole toribash thing too seriously. Though luckily I am a space-doctor so I can evaluate this situation in a medical analysis. Through your eyes I see a few options available to you in this situation.
1.) Kill yourself
This is the most simple option. Turn on your bathtub or shower, unplug any electrical device, and dive right in! You wont feel a thing. Be sure to leave a death note for your ex-toribash friends so they know you have been taken to a better place.
2.) Quit the game
This game is not as good as you seem to be making it out to be. Your twenties should be one of the most active times in your life. Get off the internet and go run around in that big yellow bright thing with some real people. (Of course, I wouldn't do this, I'm to busy making a successful career out of playing fighting games and space-doctor-ing)