Originally Posted by
mwah
i want to know the process that led you to this
Hmmm well shortly after I discovered my true sexuality (I thought I was straight-ish until the age of 21, when I finally let myself indulge in my attraction to masculine people) I realized that appearing feminine gave me a lot of satisfaction. This satisfaction was not sexual, just... comfortable in a way. I began to try out slightly more feminine mannerisms and presentation and it all felt very natural. I guess I just stopped myself from trying to fit in with the college bros around me and acted very genuinely. I found that I cared so little about the way I dressed and the way I looked when going out each day because masculine presentation just wasn't my thing. Women's fashion was so much more interesting and it made me want to construct outfits and highlight the parts of my body I thought were nice. Growing out my hair was an exciting prospect I had never considered because my parents always expected me to keep my hair short. I started talking to a trans girl at my college about it all and she helped me explore gender a little bit. She taught me about HRT (hormone replacement therapy) and it sounded amazing to me. I loved the thought of having a much more feminine body. Then I thought... "well guys typically don't want to have cis girl-ish bodies... maybe I'm not a guy." I thought I was a trans girl at first because well... that's all I knew of. But after some deep thinking about what I was at my core, I just couldn't find a gender which I felt inherently fit me. I am just a person who likes looking more feminine, who is a vers bottom, who is a switch, who is way too into super smash bros melee, who loves learning and engineering and algorithm design, who gets far too political far too often. If I were to "pick" a gender, I'd just be trying to stereotype myself in a way. So... agender (without gender) it is.
Last edited by Maya; Nov 22, 2019 at 04:31 AM.