This might explain something.
Have you guys noticed how odd I am? Probably.
It's easy to hide online, but in reality, I'm actually legally psychotic.
I have a form of mild psychosis that makes me bipolar and, at night, almost crazy.
I tend to do things at night that I regret in the morning, or not even remember, sometimes, I just get driven crazy by the smallest thought.
I said this because
1) I need to get it out.
2) I realize that I've been giving the advice that the internet can't really judge you that effectively, and I should take my own advice.
3)It tends to come in waves, and it feels like it's coming back.